Are You Willing? - Carol Krum


Carol Krum
Carol Krum

One Sunday morning during communion, I experienced a most profound moment in hearing from the Lord.  It was at a time when I was being faced with a difficult situation in my life and I was actually wondering how I was to navigate my way through it with any sense of dignity.  As I reached for the cup, I actually heard in my spirit, “Are you willing to drink from this cup which I offer you?”  To think that the God of all creation loved me so much that He was asking me if I would be willing to drink of the cup that He was offering me was one of my most intimate moments of love and trust in our relationship that I had ever experienced.

First of all, He was reassuring me that He knew exactly what was in that cup and that nothing had slipped past Him, no matter how it may have appeared to me. What comfort I took in that revelation, especially as I was standing on the threshold of the unknown.  Oh, the lovingkindness of my God was nearly palpable in my spirit!  But then a deeper truth began to etch its way into my heart that took my breath away.  Yes, He was asking me if I was willing, which in and of itself was precious.  But He was actually offering it to me!

The definition from the KJV Dictionary for offer is: to present for acceptance or rejection.  I was clearly being given the choice to either accept His offer or reject it.  Oftentimes my zeal and enthusiasm for the things God shows me override my sense of reasoning, and such was the case in that moment.  There wasn’t time to analyze it, but the only thing I could say was yes!  Of course I would drink of this cup, doing so in faith simply because He asked me if I was willing.  I would do anything for Him and I believed He trusted me with doing so.

As we all know, the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak!  Little did I know what that cup held … and for that I am most grateful.  For had I known, perhaps I would have rejected the offer.  But in His infinite goodness, He lovingly honored me with His request, giving me a choice to drink deeply or to turn away.  By grace, and only by grace, I said yes to the drinking of this cup and what it held for me - suffering I couldn’t imagine and sorrow that was indescribable. Yet that response has provided for me the glory of knowing Christ Jesus intimately, the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings.  Phil. 3:10

I realize that all the pain that was before me would have been there whether I drank of the cup or not.  Who I would become as a result of that answer was a defining moment, one which continues to keep me humble and very close to the heart of the Lover of my soul.  Pain and suffering are inevitable on this earth, but walking into its very heart with the communion of Christ is what transforms us into His image, with the joy of the Lord being the end result.  There is no greater reward!

Yes, Lord Jesus, I am willing!

Carol Krum is the Partner Coordinator at the Spokane Headquarters and our resident encourager in joy.